why when everyone in your life is doing so amazing with school, their family, their boyfriends/girlfriends and your just sitting there thinking how bad your doing in school, how many fucking family problems you have and you’re more single then you ever were before. it’s annoying. i hate it. i feel like God is punishing me or something. why can’t i be doing amazing in school? why can’t my family have no problems? why can’t i have an amazing boyfriend? i just don’t get it. i’m tired of being tired, lonely, upset. i feel like i have no one all the time. yes, i have friends that would do anything for me but sometimes that’s not good enough. i just need that one guy in my life that’s going to make me a better person, that supports anything i want to do, that can make me happy when all i want to do is be sad. i need that someone that’s going to change my perspective on not thinking that every single guy is an asshole. i just want someone to love me. that sounds so lame. but it’s true. i always feel like i’m not pretty enough, i’m not skinny enough, i’m not smart enough, i’m not funny enough, i’m not confident enough. i think that’s why i’m single. i don’t even look for guys because everyone knows that when you stop looking that’s when you do find someone. i’ve been single since like Decemeber and my last relationship wasn’t even good. i just gave up on everything and everyone praying that something good would come out of it and i would find someone that would change my world.. but that hasn’t happened and i’m losing hope that it ever will. this was depressing, sorry if you wasted your time reading this.
